Friday, January 16, 2009

Can't Get Away...

"I am an arrow,
I am a rocket.
I am a river,
nothing can stop it.
Cause You are the target,
and You are the atmosphere.
You are the ocean,
that keeps pulling me,
You pulling me here.
And I can't get away,
can't get away...
I keep running into You.
Can't get away,
Can't get away...
I keep running into You
I am a beggar,
You are the table.
I am so helpless,
God You are so able.
And when I get turned around,
You change my direction.
Cause You're so perfect,
I'm so broken.
Here You come with arms wide open,
chasing after me.
Down every road,
You're always waiting there...
And I can't get away,
Can't get away...
I keep running into You.
Can't get away,
Can't get away...
I keep running into You.
And even when I close my eyes,
I can't help but see.
That there's no place that I can hide,
you're such a part of me.
I can't get away, cause I keep running into You..."
Can't Get Away
by Rush of Fools
I was packing my gym bag for tomorrows run before bed tonight. I hooked up my new headphones to my MP3 player and decided to try them out. Since I didn't want to fill my mind with anything other than God's pureness, I heard "Can't Get Away" in my head. That would be # 30 on my MP3. I flipped it on and had myself some God time! I gave Him my whole heart and the distractions that like to try and come in between me and my Best Friend. I laid it out and told Him everything. I felt so good and refreshed. I "rushed" downstairs like a child running to their father after returning home from work. I wanted to post this while my heart was pumping full of joy and love for my Father.
"O Lord, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways...Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting."-Psalm 139:1-24
I was playing the song above in the car last week. As it started, I heard Maddy ask, "Why is he saying I am an arrow?" I explained to her the entire song as it played. What our role was and what God's was. I told her when you have God in your heart, you cannot get away from Him. You have invited Him in to live there forever so He will never leave you. She asked me, "when did I become a Christian?" I told her I remember her being 7 years old when she asked Jesus into her heart, she was in our basement while I was watching gospel videos. She responded, "no, it was before that because I have always worshipped God with my heart since I was 4 years old." I smiled and said, "okay, well for 4 years you have been a Christian." She asked, "that's all?"
That's all??? It seems that way. When you have a new heart/eyes it seems that God has been with you forever...and you know what, He has. Did you know He is with you right now? You cannot see Him but He is with you and loving you with His whole being! Recognize Him. Just thank Him for everything He has done for you and while you're at it, tell Him how Holy, Holy, Holy He is. Love on Him because He is always loving on you.
Jesus loves you and you can't get away!

Sunday, January 11, 2009

"You did that on purpose!"

The title of this blog sounds like siblings in an argument. Antagonizing your brother or sister and them yelling that out at you. Most of us have heard it many times over and over.
I heard it yesterday while reading an email from my brother Jason.

You see we reconnected after many years of being apart. Facebook is wonderful with all the details of peoples lives and the wonderful "Instant Message." With IM I am (haha) able to chat with my friends and family. I love it!

I received an uplifting email from Jason on God, family, and life in general. A lot of things were written and made my heart so full of joy and the word "PURPOSE" was all I could think of. After replying to the email, I pondered that word-"PURPOSE" and thought of the well know scripture-Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

So after thinking of this and some conviction from the Lord, I began to think back at my purpose. What was it again? My mind has been so cluttered with the wordly possessions and thoughts that I cannot seem to remember. I may catch a glimpse of what I vowed to do for God but I can't grab a hold of it.

Maddy and I watched "WALL*E" last night. It was a sweet movie and caught myself calling out for "WALL*E" and his pain to have that "hand to hold." Without giving too much information on the movie, there was a scene where WALL*E is looking up at the sky and it is covered with smog and toxins. He gets a small glimpse of the sky with a twinkling star but it is quickly covered by the toxins again and he shrugs his shoulders and goes about his daily routine.

Why does life have to get in the way to where we settle for this? Why do we let the worries, material possessions, or other people of this world toxin our view of what God wants to show us and we are okay with "just a glimpse?" My heart has been poked at by God all day for Him wanting to give me what He has for me and I am scared to see it.

We had Life Group tonight and we are going over "The Blessed Life." They asked, "What does it mean to give it all to God?" I responded with, "You have to give EVERYTHING to him, not holding anything back." When I said that I was convicted of not doing that.

I am human and I strive to be like the Lord but it is hard when God wants to renew something big inside of you but has to get rid of the toxins that is in your view. I am tired of seeing a glimpse of Him and shrugging my shoulders because I have to be on my routine. I want to see it all!!!

"Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the Lord, "and will bring you back from captivity..." Jeremiah 29:12-14

WALL*E ended up seeing the sky in full force after fulfilling his purpose and having a "hand to hold."

Thank you Lord for bringing Jason and his family back into our lives and helping me meditate on the things you call us to be..."You did that on purpose!"